fate..

2008-01-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

What ever it is... I've been getting more and more tired easily lately.. Yesterday.. I was not in much good mood either... Ouh well at least hanging around with the guys actually distracts me for a while... School works are getting more and more stress lately... Yeah most of my classmates did sey i look the most relax one... -.- Thats is so not true.. The fact is i am very worried and i don't really know what i am doing for most of my projects especially gad.. It is just that i have been hiding/compressing my negative feelings to everyone as usual... >.<.. I hope it gets better...

Another problem arise among this school problems... its like "wow what a great timing to have such problems..." I am going to do my best to leave it aside.. But i am indeed going to write down here but nt mentioning names... And also no one actually visits this blog anw other than some random passerby... -.-..

ok here it goes.. Having confusing feeling towards someone in my class.. (DEFINATELY NT A GUY I am straight ok -.-) Its like this usual problems of this... Don't want to lose as friends and wanting to get closer to her... Get fact straight that i am getting more and more annoyed by the class pairing up such... Indeed i do secretly gt feelings for her... Whats more they didn't know that they are poking knives into my heart over and over again by doing such jokes like that... If i really cannot take it anymore.. Erm yes i might go bezerk...
Did i just hinted who i like? ouh well -.-

I guese thats all for now...

SOmething wrong with the coding..

2007-12-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

Lalala... Once again.. i change the sking of this blog... But that is a problem with the post headings.. -_-" i try come out with something.. well next time...

wah late for school -_-"

2007-05-28T09:37:00.000+08:00

Wth... i late for around 20mins -_-".. all because of the traffic jam... i board the bus at around 7.55am.. I actually fell asleep within a few mins of boredness inside the bus.. When i woke up it was already reaching 9... i tot i overslelpt and miss NP bus stop.. then i shock tat the bus only reach bishan SIA!!... wth man... 1 hr slp frm kahtib to bishan -_-"...

I want go competition SIA!!!

2007-05-26T16:40:00.000+08:00

Walao.. I got the chance to go for the competition but i can't because my dad don't allow me too.. sian ah.. my first chance to go for archery competition and i am not allowed to go...

oh ya i "mite" once in a while update my blog... so whoever is still visiting my blog... which i doubt so... alrite nex time...

Happy Birthday!!

2007-03-31T00:56:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday PF!!... erm past 12 am.. -_-''.. so your birthday is ytd...

Hope this don't restart.. and lose watever i wrote again... -_-''

aiya... wth.. lazy write already le -_-''.. later restart again... or is it ain't to be questioned... oO..
i gt to inside Ngee Ann Poly.. and already gotten my mac book...

hiaz tmr working again... in the afternoon... keep in touch... :P

Finally 100th post...

2007-02-24T17:12:00.000+08:00

er.. don't worry.. this not going to be about the 100th post in this blog... <.< so please continue reading if u mind...

yesterday.. i kind of worked full shift... very tired and still can overnight at a chalet.. lol.. well with toys'rus buddies of course... staying awake throughout the night... hmm... at first we discuss about footbal jersey den after that then the interesting part starts... went to the pasir beach... there is something like a swamp in the area... with no lighting at all...well were in a group.. and went right in ard 2-3am... it was very dark.. hardly visible on where we were walking until Shazni on his handphone light.. we kind of went out the nearest next exit... we were just like walking near the borders of the swamp not into the swamp... then we head back to the beach... and relax for a while.. half of the group want to continue exploring the pasir ris park... so we split into 2 groups.. well i rather spent my time enjoying the breeze at the beach than exploring...

Abdullah.. mention something like.. this like going to be one and only time before we could enjoy such an occasion and looking at the beautiful scenary at the beach... i have feeling that is true too.. i never been hanging out with my friends lately.. Poly admission is going to come out soon... after 3 years.. it will 2 years of NS... then we start working again.. our chances to enjoy again is so little..

Around 4.30am - 5 am... well we regroup bt this all guys.. we went back into the swamp.. entering from the entrance near the tower... then we went all the way into the samp.. i mean really into the place.. until we reach a dead end.. a resting place.. itz like a good spot for fishing... since it was like a river at that point... well kind of fun u know... i had never do that wif my friends before... anws.. after that we rest back at the same part of the beach to rest a while... before heading back to our chalet.. finding almost everyone asleep.. well before we left it was like noisy with laughter ard and stuff.. since no space for us to rest in the chalet.. Me, Abdullah, Shazni and Jumali kind of slept on the benches outside the chalet.. for ard 1 hour +... after that i was awaken by stupit mosquito bites -_-''...

then... Abdullah and Jumali left for work... Shazni staying on until tmr.. well me went home becuz my mum onli allowed me to overnite for a day -_-''.. i gonna miss all the fun they gonna have today... hiaz... Y my mum still don;t trust me and grant me my freedom <.<...

in anws.. i am looking forward to my next chalet or activity if there is one.. :P

some stuff

2007-02-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

Cancer is an Water sign
Symbol: The Crab
Planet: The Moon
Style: Cardinal
Birthstone: Pearl
Color: Silver
Flower: Larkspur
Virtue: Caring
Key Characteristic: Loyalty

thats about me i get from a web <.<
i don't know true or not but one thing i know is that everybody is different... probably you all figure out aobut my blog address after this post.. kind of obvious... well i got to slp... since tomorrow working full... will be a very tiring day for me...

Revival of this blog..

2007-02-21T03:21:00.000+08:00

this blog like dead.. alive.. dead.. alive... many times already <_<
this time i do my best on updating and posting entries... (hopefully)

First off... tnx a lot to PF for helping me on the skins... well this skin is one of my fav current anime.. Tsubasa chronicle.. er.. wanna noe more?? go to the etc section and watch the video...

for the photos below... er... i try to update soon...

nvr realise this blog like since 2004 if nt wrg... check my achieves... abit childish lah me last time... well i having a great time wif my frenz.. and at home <--- when no probs...
btw this is way better to gt to noe me rather den friendster....

for those who been wif this blog... sry for no post for a very long time...
for those who are new to this blog... plz tag my board :p.. well this originally a "private" blog... meaning a few of my friends who used to know this blog... might have wrong address... since was open for all before it becum "private" and become open again rite now...

i wanna go slp already kies...

hmm... frenz?

2006-11-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

rite... sry.. for constantly dead and alive blog... haha... kind of busy studying and stuff to do at home.. bt mainly studying... well seriously tdy paper is very encouraging.. but i don't know for other papers.. very disheartening if my work just went down drain... well let just keep it off my mind....

about 14 more days left... till is over... i planning to get my com back.. ( like been almost a year )
and probably just hang out wif my frenz.. well likely the usualy ones.. hu we all the go play games or arcade together... likely be me, iman and fook.. well see first if more plp wanna tag.. and u see this blog will live again... oh ya.. my friendster too.. will be rolling wif new pics frm my outings recently and after my o's wif my fren...

this time.. we mite be separated my fren... bt we be still together best frenz... hmm.. 10 years together.. so y nt..? he all the time been beside me as a buddy... either in games (especially shooting).. or in studies... or any challenges ahead... rite on... well i haf a fren longer than this.. 16 years... bt i am nt so close with her... and dun tink to start your merepek ha... like dey said bonds if a fren is hard to be broken... rite tats gt to study chemistry le...

-the strong gust of tonado is like nuthing to me...

upset..

2006-10-17T21:17:00.000+08:00

hiaz.. my final lap... and 2 days to graduation... so upset actually... but i just have to carry on with life... i seriously going to miss my class... 4e4... been through together a lot... and my friends who are so close to me like the malay group frm my class... and don't forget Shi Qiang and fookian who always seem to help me.... joke about stupit stuff... and fnally not to be forgotten my friends from sec2s and sec3s... you guys and gals... has entered this chapter of my life too... memories will never be forgotten... and live in the presnt.. tats for now...

-nvr been better

went to buy hari raya stuff...

2006-10-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

as per normal... go buy hari raya stuff... kind of sian le... like every past years things... all the time conflict between mum and dad... me typically stand at one side and watch in boreness... itz my first and last for this time... thats what i told my mum... i don't want to waste too much time moving around aimlessly... unless wif friends of course... but never happen...

yesterday a nightmare when i reach home early for the firs time after 2 weeks of night study although i am not compulsary... then my mum and dad like ask me do that do this.. i like sial lah!! walao!! i go home to rest not to do stuff... i like so tired till the moment i lie on something i fall asleep... don't blame me... mentally tired... see many improvement especially maths.. i did practice and whole paper 1 and paper 2 so little mistakes... sometimes even full marks lolz... well bad thing is my weakness is the stupit angles.... physics... is the A.c and d.c circuits.... chem... chemical calculations, organic chem and many more... since havent touch much on chem... well see people like sey no life like this since study so much... crazylah study so much... your problem not problem... u defoinately have no life after your exams if u dun study at all... i rather waste 1 month of my life for the rest of my future than the other way round....

many people like sey.. izwan.. u crazy lah computer games only nothing else u do in yor free time... er yeah... i like them... but i dun become so crazy about it... i only play for the story line and how the game works and especially the battle systems.... after all... i wanna become a game designer...

- scrifice now rather den my future

Change Skin

2006-10-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

haha... out of tireness and stress... just change skin... well i hope you all like it.. it is final fantasy: vinvent valentine... hmm... why i seem to always look into skins like games... well mainly it is like one of the few that is not to show that this is a girls blog... any way thats all for now... very tired...

stupit haze!!

2006-10-08T21:51:00.000+08:00

the haze problem like what the.... some of my friends like start coffing and all... haha.. actually me too.. now alrite already.. so don't worry... anw who will worry about me? i like the haze in a sense like fog... the vision like blurish.... stop talking about the haze... tmr my cls will have to move to 4/9 cause of a classmate who dislocated his knee... kind of alrite i guese since he is recovering... hiaz.. feel bad for him... very unfortunate and his 'o's is coming... i hope that he can recover in time... well for me... i think i feel alrite right now currently... thats all for now...

still awake?

2006-10-07T01:44:00.000+08:00

Still awake? zzz.... i woke up due to the noise made by my sister and brother.... i felt so tired today that i didn't even study at all... the onli day i didn't study so far.... but anwyways...

This is the time i usually sleeps if i am not schooling... the haze was very bad today.... made me get a cough.... but now don't already... strange... today as you all can see, it is a full moon!! haha.. i just love the night sky.... where all the good memories come to me.... sleepy...

Wish u all reading here Good luck and all the best in your exams...

- it is strange how weak your heart is but it never seem to give up

1 month to go...

2006-10-05T23:00:00.000+08:00

hiaz... i don't think i did well for my Prelims 2.... Only 5 pass... must all pass... not only pass... must get good grades if i want to achieve my dreams... i am definately going to study Dnt as to score distinction... as i made my first step to get distinction for my folio artefact :) ... haha... anyway.. been studying like crazy lately.... although i am not compulsary to go night study... but i still go.. i want to improve... i don't want to let anyone behind me down... seriously i felt with those work and studying i made... it ain't enough... first time i felt that... i didn't study a all for Prelim 2 anyway.. i seriously regret with the results actually... onli last 5 min revision before taking the paper... studying at school is not good for me but at least better than at home... I am aiming for 10....

seriously feeling down lately.. just never show it to others... let just say that i don't my emotions to control my life... i just could not let it out at anybody...

i kind of accepting that i don't have a best friend at all... never had one... juz can't believe that i can do stupit things... i even tried to help him change... he never change... well he is on his own now.... BIg dreams but never work for it....

I am just feeling down... really.. just do know where its is coming from... out of the blue... and it ain't going to go away that easily..... although i might be smiling and laughing.. the sadness still lingers in me... Don't know why... And for the last time for the people who read my blog.. i don't like anybody... Just on his own...

- Hearts are connected by an invisible link....

rod nite...

2006-09-24T23:16:00.001+08:00

yay... finally i pass out ncc... the platoon tat participate in most events.. haha.. ndp.. win competition... best in tat and this... and blah blah the list goes on... frm the look of it.. many plp sae ug group going to fall... hiaz... to tell all the truth... i gonna reallie miss my platoon and my cca... it sucks to be a leader i dun like the idea of it... although all the time i kena be leader in group works... once a prefect in primary skl... once a monitor in primary skl... and now i kind of in charge of the cls diary and geography rep... all i want to be the one hu doing the drills... wif my platoonmates... itz kind of fun... especially wif favourate former platoon sgt.... Cheng Xun.. and woots his dere during our rod.... haha kena bashing lah he... well same for me... we do push up together... we suffered together... walkin the woods together... went to camp together... become the guard of honour together... the first batch to go for the fds course... (well me nt inside for pds)... i seriously gonna miss dem... haha.. put up the pic wen i am sec 2... in ncc... and sec 4 rod... the last of us together... as a platoon and cheng xun is dere wif us in som pics too haha... rock on!! i miss him givin us the commands and all... and the girl thing and jokes he use to tell.. lolz... i gonna miss u guyz...

during rod, we gt to eat pizza and cakes... haha..the outstanding cca... lolz... tnx officers... and especially my platoon officer and form teacher Miss Siti... haha... she actually belanja us Swensen before cuz of our gd results for specialist course... haha.. we all cut botak for tat.. the one at frenzter is wen we are sec2... ooh ya cheng xun wif us during sec 3 too... as our platoon clt...lolz... wen he sec 2 as platoon sg... power sia... and our juniors... of course the i will nvr forget... veri gd performance ah.. except for the waiting time.. lolz... like 2 hours wait sia... bt by any ways... we seniors will always appreciate wat u guyz haf done for us.. ( gd stuff nt bad stuff) and especially my sec 2 batch... the ones hu i am in charge on... well kind of closer to the sec 2s than the sec3s anw... kena bashing my own platoon... my sec 2 platoon scared to bash me lolz.... dey kena bash by my platoon for dey bashing jeremy... haha...

particularly.. i guese the best times is wen i am in sec 2 and 3... where all the fun cums... sec 1 still blur blur mah.... u all can see tat.... sec 4 is wen everything start to gt serious, more muture ways and memories cum back as is my final years... i serious gonna miss all of u sia... even nw i miss to play wif the machines at the dnt workshop... although i gt a small workshop at home... (like everything at home oso haf rite own com(total 3 coms), 2 laptobs , 5 tv, dvd recorder, 3 radios, so so on)... haha... back to topic... u all out dere.. sec 2s and sec3s.. enjoy your time and treasure dem... itz my best time of my life as a semi-mature guy during tat period.... i seriously can see a lot of change in me throught out the years... and being the person i am tdy... more mature after each passing day... nvr see me gt chase by my frenz often do u? the rate wen seriously low i can sae..

i gonna miss u all... especially the teachers... my cls 4e4... my platoon (delta 2006) written as 2003 - 2006 in my ncc plaque... those hu entered my secondarylife... my frenz sec2s- sec5s (2006)... seriously.. i dun reallie noe any of the sec 1s at all.. to u all again nex year.. i noe i will see u all again... juz haf this feeling tat i will u plp again... (oO izwan can see the future) haha juz kid... serious i am glad u all haf entered my life... and gonna miss u all...

P.S: hey plp vote Hardy!! plz... haha.. i onli watch finals...

juz defying...

2006-09-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

hiaz... Prelims here.. and honestly i juz dun really the sound of it...

well kind of bad mood yesterday.. wif my bro givin me a hard time slping... den reaching home after skl wif right shoulder aching, right knee aching and left angkle aching... actually it been the last few months with the occational aching of the same parts... haha juz dun care? yeah tat muz be it.. tmr geo n report at 1p.m.. walao.. i dun like studying or doing papers in the afternoon... make me sleepy.. lolz... n seriously i am nt interested in anybody rite nw.. so dun bother cum to me and ask... " Wan! wan!... hu u like " ... i cant ans.. u tell me how to ans wen i dun even like anybody well apart frm my family of course... and rest juz frenz i guese.. or closer....

wanna slp.. and i juz luv tis quote...

- One Fate... Million ways to defy it...

simply me...

2006-09-06T22:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday... i actually went Sp... well yeah tats kind of life i want... more fun den secondary skl... seriously i tink my primary skl life more fun den secondary life... well apart frm maturity i guess.. anw som idiots disturb me wen i am on my way home... well obviously frm ytss den...

anw my course i wanna enter is game design... haha.... anw find some pics wen i am in yps... haha.. proof tat i once a prefect and wear specs... lolz... tmr gt tis primary skl reunion.. i dun whether to go or nt.. the onli ytss student goin.. well yeah... maybe i'll go...

- sian is juz apart of him

wat a weekend...

2006-09-03T20:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday... dun noe how to sae.. went out wif my frenz... dam boring sia the rsaf open house... den simply we went to eat at causeway point... den played at timezone.. well thats the onli fun i had... playing time crisis II...

for tdy... a bit more interesting... well except for my usual parents nagging... bt anw.. went to one of my mum's fren wedding... shockingly shes dere... oO.. my primary skl fren... i wat de.. memories brought to me.. well me and her nvr gone beyond this word 'fren'... woah.. lucky nvr went back wif her.. my mum want to go chong pang... juz close this time.. bt nt as close like last year.. wen i went to her house last year during hari raya... yeah.. memories lingers... having tuition at her house n all.. seeming i juz prefer to accept her as a fren..

hey.. juz wanna wish 'N' lvl takers gd luck tmr!!

argh so bored at home... i juz wanna go out...

so wat make u think i am your fren!!

2006-08-25T22:35:00.000+08:00

it feels damn bad reallie!! until i cannot control my emotions... i end almost fightin a fren hu appears to disturb me out of boredness... i am reallie sorry!! nt your fault!!

y this year suks the most... maybe even in my sec life... well i manage to gain control of myself during SS... stupit sia the microsoft word.. som plp stupidly go up trying to fix it... well makin the situation worse... i like luffin like siao... lol.. cuz seemingly i noe how to fix it... bt too bad... haha... the prog spoil mah... no way to fix it.. go reinstall the prog lag unless u learn programming... lolz

actually durin eng lesson i wasn't slpin wif my eyes open... i was feelin veri upset... till i cant controll it... till make it as if i was slpin lolz!!

it really feel sucks...

2006-08-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

y all the time i tink of u
it hurts me more
all i want is to forgt u and gt on wif the present
bt seemingly i cant juz ignore u
cuz anw i go
even among the crowd
u will always seem to catch my attention
i juz want to let it all go..

one by one
frenz betray me (even best/gd frenz)
mock at me
scold me
hate me
nw even the whole cls against me
the group of mly batch
even u!!

i am all alone..
i dun need your pity....
wats this...
the more i help others
the more hurt i gt

seemingly i cant control my emotions anymore
juz cant take it anymore
nw only one phrase tat keep me goin
go against destiny

veri bored le...

2006-08-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

same old thing every single weekday... i want something new to happen... something interesting... personally i gt sick of going to skl den go home den gt nag frm den slp den wake up my mum den kena nag den go skl... well yeah tats my life as usuall... i want something different u noe.. its bad to unable to let go of your feelings like others can... juz like a crab tat hide all his secrets under its shell... haha... after all i am a cancer boy... always hiding something...

plp will nvr gt to noe his true him... his behavior.. cuz it changes all the time... i dun noe y.. it always change... can be a cheerful hu can gt along wif others... can even be annoying guy or evensomtimezhe can be quiet... well juz see wat day it is... every single day dere is always diff bout his behavior... haha watch out for tat!!... bt still gt sick of wat i do daily..well except this blog i guese which i juz started recently...

yeah.. i am ok... like real... haha.. u tink i show my true feelings to others... well frm the looks of it.. i suck big time on love or should sey having relationship wif girls... they juz cum and go... juz stripping off me... tats life is'nt it... bt i nt juz going to go a long wif fate or destiny... i dare to go against it... the onli thing is tat i dun like to hurt others or even see others hurt... haha.. nvr seem to gt into a fight often doesn't he... y do plp juz always do for the fun of it or even force their emotions to go along wif dem...?

cant dey understand to listen to demself, their hearts... think before doing something...

so long nvr post an entry...

2006-08-23T21:14:00.000+08:00

Now... for the real entry... Storyline obut the dude on the right... scroll down to the 2nd post which is the post beofre this...

Well.. for now this blog is juz to let it all my sadness andanger go.... Hey allmy negative emotions cantstay at one place rites... it will make me go crazy to hide all the emotions... alrite... alrite i be a guy hu rite the entry and stop toking bout emotion... like emo boy sia... lolz...

So bored/sian.. nuthin much to do... bt to study... i kind of stop myself frm playing computer games which is a miracle to me... okok...nt stop totally... itz like play an hour or 2 out of the whole months... i tink i better stopwrittin already later my mum scold... need to wake up at bout 3 or4 am to study u noe... i will most likely post entries during weekends... hey tag at my tagboard alrites... and dun spread this blog.. plz!!

Storyline of this blog ''skin''...

2006-08-23T21:06:00.001+08:00

This guy on the right name 'Sora'... He is a chosen keyblade master... He haf to save the world... Frm the ''evil'', heartless and nobodies... His 2 gd frenz were seperated frm him... He den found himself fighting along wif Goofy and donald duck... thru his adventures he learn the meaning of friendship, love and care... he sacrifice his heart to save his fren hu is a girl hu he like obviously... tats the first part of the game...

Haha... well if u wanna noe the ending go to www.gamefaqs.com.... den type Kingdom Hearts 2..

2006-08-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

i hope u all like the changes.... :)

wah!! heart pain sia!!

2006-06-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

hiaz wat has happen cannot be undone... days went down the drain.. hell to u artefact for o level!!

'O' level

2006-05-28T18:03:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow i am going to have my malay paper. Most likely the end of my batch malay class as no more malay lesson. All the best for those who taking the paper with me.

the war has started the moment i am born

2006-04-29T20:46:00.000+08:00

The moment i am born
The war has started
The moment i am dead
The war has ended

When i trust somebody
It is the moment i have fall
The moment i will lose the battle
Nobody can be trusted in my world

I am alone from the begining
And alone when it ends
Nobody will be with me
I make my own journey alone

I hold this sword
My only weapon
To defend myself from falling
And from everybody

The mistake i made
Can never be forgiven
It cannot be change
I want to be in my own fantasy world
My own fantasy story

updated

2006-04-29T20:38:00.000+08:00

*updated

Friends list website - one removed
Change video

no more running

2006-04-21T00:06:00.000+08:00

Running is just diffcult enough for me
I keep all my feelings in me
Not leting it out lose anymore
But letting go of hatred

I do not want to fall again
I had enough is enough
No more letting go off everything
I have to take control of myself to prevent it from happening

update

2006-04-20T20:54:00.000+08:00

Updated*

Friends List Website
Sylvester

another day another hope

2006-04-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

hmm... Again trust. Do you trust what i am seying? haha... nvm... forget it.. ( oh ya sylvester wouldn't noe this new add :p so no 10c for me)

Thight schedule for me actually to be in school with teachers and all...

Monday: Malay (cikgu Azlinah)
Tuesday: Mendaki (i seriously regret for going for this)
Wednesday: English( a must)
Thursday:Mendaki
Friday:Maths(Miss Tham just noe it today sia -_-'')
Saturady: Self study and free time

Let make a few change with my habits to adapt to tis.. (hope it works)
- come to school before 7am on weekdays
- Make playing board games as my hobby (chinese chess and english chess)
- Get those frozen memories away frm me
- Do stick to my schedule on seeing my teachers as possible with friends or without
- No more complaints about anything

Alrite maybe more will comes...

hidden

2006-04-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

Hidden
Certain things are meant to be hidden
Remain a secret within yourself
Where nobody knows except you
Because it is hidden in you

another confusion

2006-04-17T21:19:00.000+08:00

There are two things that cause me the confusion in me. Love and hatred. When i am feeling hatrated than this sense of love comes in. But when this feeling of love comes in, this feeling of hatrated comes in. This got to do with anybody. Alamak... Hack carelah.. haha... Nobody would care about that anyway. When i reach home, i felt sick all of a sudden... Don't worry i am alrite, it been occuring quiet a while already. All of a sudden pains in my stomach thats all... Use to this kind of pains anyway. Like my leg get cram up when i am sleeping. LOL.. i do not even know how it happens...

Frozen

2006-04-16T15:55:00.000+08:00

Reality Escape
running been my life
i do not want others to suffer
the same fate as me
i hid all to myself

Frozen Illustions
I would rather be
frozen in time
where nobody knows me
frozen dreams, frozen destiny, frozen hopes

frozen memories

2006-04-16T15:45:00.000+08:00

I just do not want to remember my past... I actually tried to kill myself a number of times in the past... But i cant just make my life fade away... my childhood dream is to make this life a good memorable way to everybody... And now again... At times, I just wish that i did not exsist... It is haunting me all over again... I felt bad to let go of a friend... i felt bad to make someone upset... I just wish all these bad things will not happen... I do not want to see others suffer in my own anger and rashness...

All i did was.... Keep all my fears, emotions and problems to myself... I do not want others to worry... I kept on running... running... running... away from my own reality...

running away

2006-04-15T23:23:00.000+08:00

All I want is
To run away
From my true feelings in me
To escape
From my own reality

busy busy busy

2006-04-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

By the looks of it... It is going to be a very busy year for me... Probably i will only blog once in a while... And i love to be in the cold... Too bad no winter in Singapore... Rain will do...
FrEeZe!!

my journey

2006-03-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

I will always be alone. Fight myself in the endless battle. Give them all I have. This is my battle. haha. enough of these stupid things. hmm. Know more about me. I have a split personalities. One is the loner and scold anyone bothers him. Another is the friendly type. The last one is the crazy type. So better watch out.

Favourate Type of Character:
Mage or Summoner

Elmental:
Ice

Type of Playing:
Solo most of the time or in pairs

Type of Games:
Usually nobody playing anymore or nobody playing it

Something want to achieve:
Owning an internet game

Just my past, present, future

2006-03-06T20:53:00.000+08:00

I had never felt it before
Even till now i never felt it before
This is my fate
This is my life

There is one thing
I am always afraid of
Something I fear
The feeling of losing my friends

This led me into the darkness
I prefer to be alone
Somebody make me feel
Not to trust anyone but yourself

I fear to show my true self
I have been backstabbed to many times
I just hate it
I don't want it to happen again

This is my fate
Nobody i can trust even my own family
This is my life
I have to survive this on my own

I am just waiting for this one day
This person will pull me out of the darkness
And seys
You trust me

That day is when the person proof
My friends are ready
They can be trusted
Only that person can change my life

The unforgetful day
Something i will never forget
Helping each in times of trouble
Stand up for each other

I wonder when i going to be be. One thing i know, its not going to be in the present.

yAY!!

2006-02-15T18:19:00.000+08:00

Haha... Siao me... Anyway home alone again but who cares. Used to it like since i am young. My parents and little sister overseas while my brother and sister working. Seems that a few people wonders why i so into computer games. hmm... It is all about my past. I am introduced to computer even before kindergarten and always play Street Fighter with brother in the past. I met a few friends in my primary school who like to play computer games when i was primary2. So this is where all my interest and hobby came from. By the way, I lost all contacts with primary school friends and all my primary teachers already retire or already promoted to MOE. So it is no use for me to go back to my primary school. Well thats my life. By the way, i probably only one a month.

Alrite i am out of love life
Never felt love or true love before
So I don't care any more
Its my life since i am young
the only thing i had from my past
Is computer games........
So don't bother to care about me

I updated a few things..

2006-02-12T19:44:00.000+08:00

I just updated a few things. By the way, common people do not give up hope yet. This is just a beginning. Balance your time well between studies and having fun. Thats all for today.

The Hope Will NeVEr end!!

2006-02-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

tHe Hope In Me Will never End Even when There No hOpe Left....!!!

Watched a movie

2006-01-29T00:20:00.000+08:00

Well, I went to watch 'I am not stupid just now'. Thumbs Up for the movie. Seriously, it is a must to watch. I want to watch it again. At first it was very funny, then, it is very touching. Probably is a mixture what i had had with my parents. Some of you guys should realise that sometimes I am so cold to you. Well, my parents don't trust me. Always thinks that i did something bad in school. Scold me about my hobby abd maybe even don't like the idea of me trying to achieve as a game designer. The moment i told them, i can read easily from their faces. When i did something good, they scold me that i did it wrong. Anything goes wrong in the house they blame me. Even if it is obviouse that my siblings did it. i mean like they treat with a totally different way to the rest of my family members. My brother, they treat him so well and good. They don't mind anything what he is doing and even encourage him. My sister, contributing to my scolding. This is the answer you want. The reason I mistreat you. The reason i disrespect you. I can tell that person in their face that disrespect them. Once you lose it, earn it back the hard way. I don't really blame my younger sister. She is still to young to understand this stuff. They are demoralising me, discouraging. Lucky I am patient enough, if not i think i would have rebeled.

whats wrong with me?

2006-01-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

hmm. Today, my stomach seem to be upset. I felt as it like I am going to vomit but I can't. I don't know whether I can go to school. I want to go to school. I don't want to miss out anyhting. All I can do is, hope for the best.

hmm...

2006-01-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

this is a song which i think is best the situation i been facing now...

Linkin Park
Hybrid Theory
Song: In The End

Lyric:
it starts with one
One thing
I don't know why it doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme to explain in due time

All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually
Be a memory of a time

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme to remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
in the end
you kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

my choice for the future...

2006-01-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

ok... here it goes.... i have a lot of interest in game designing.... but got one prob... i need to improve my sketching.... if it still bad... i will not go designing... is a very sad thing for me.... well i want to achieve at least lower then 10.... i will go to jc if i gt 14 and below... game designing if my sketching improves and i reallie want to work on it.... hmm.... well that the only thing that interest me... i want to go to jc... all i say is... wish me luck on my o' levels and i am going to work hard for it... by the way... i seems to have no interest in ncc any longer... well except for the platoon i taking care of.... there seem to have backstabbers in my very own platoon... and especially one person i hate the most... the reason i no longer have no intrest in ncc... well... i sometimes unable to come for ncc because of studies... my own platoon mate threaten me for not coming for ncc.. i will not get my rank... hmm.. i dun give a damn about rank... i wouldn't mind nt being a sgt... so who cares.. i only come for bravo... i have no interest in others.... nt rank.... or even my own platoonmates which seemd to be some backstabers inside... well i have my say... so if any of ncc cadets want to talk to me or threaten me back to have my interest.. it will not work... who are u to decide my path of life... i decide to change myself... my friends have been taking advantage of it.... i show them my nature if i am forced too... so better dont climb over my head.... and i do not want any lectures from people who want me to change to my oldself... like i said... what have been decided... is already decided...

... feel so sick ...

2006-01-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

hmm... havin a headache... strange events happen in skl... so little time... i haf to do my hw till late in the night... tryin my best to read books.... feelin so tired after pt.... well yesterday i haf pe... my stomach seems to cramping up after an activity durin pe... it was painful through the whole day n tdy pt made it worse... tmr ncc nt cumin... i dun tink i can even wake up... so tired n sleepy...... goin to sleep....

2006... tiMe tO mAKe aNotHer stEp fOrwaRD

2006-01-01T14:36:00.000+08:00

tis goin to be a short or maybelah...hahaha... alrite.. first.. happee new year everybody... everybody will want to set new goals rite.. n i learnt a lot in 2005... alriter time to rite it all down..

wat i learnt in 2005..? hmm...
- nt to trust anyone fully except myself
- set my own path... my own decisions
- frens are dere for u...
- dun ever forgive backstabbers... n i mean it.. ya be my enemy.. n u suffer the punishment...
- nt to gorgive plp easily...
- use my time carefully
- nt to be a pro n a noob in games =) (like real haha... i better be a noob.. nobody wants to play wif me)

my goals for 2006
- hmm... good grades for o'lvls
- buy my wants wif my own money ( nt pocket money )
- upgrade my com better (current pentium4: 2.4gHz hardisk:60gb)
- set my path of life
- be a noob =) (juz kiddin)

oh ya... somthin i learnt tdy.. which is somthin tat will motivate me...

to me in a battle...
itz not for revenge...
bt to protect..
the ones i love...

dere is no tmr..
makin use..
of our time...
left usefully..

even love can blooms in a battlefield...
it could even be your enemy...
(mark my word.. stay away frm havin a relationship rite nw)

dere is a nvr ending battle...
itz in u...
u haf to decide..
itz your own life...
if i am u....
i choose to live....

kk... i stop tis nonsense... haha... i dun noelah.. to u nonsense.. bt nt me... (most of the time onli me understands wat i sae.. n no one else)

fuyoo!! my veri own com.... wif my own money...

2005-12-23T21:17:00.000+08:00

haha... tats all folks...

hw to kill my boredness....

2005-12-21T19:21:00.000+08:00

so bored.... nuthin to do.... juz return home frm skl.... oh ya... helpin out my sis in rain... send her umbrella... ala... dun noe wat do... com down to format... tv sumue cite borin... hmmm... maybe my own com goin to be set up tmr.... so see first kies... bb everybody...

phew

2005-12-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

alritez... juz return frm genting... n i also juz finish changin my blogskin... goin to be busy tis few days... hw... meetin... cca.... goin out wif frenz... tats all for nw... (actually: lazy to rite a long post:P)

Final Fantasy

2005-12-08T01:45:00.000+08:00

juz posted a video bout final fantasy games at my friendster... i juz luv the game... itz all becuz of the nice story line.. the unexpected u noe... every single final fantasy has diff story line... basically the final fantasy games bout luv, adventure, fightin n many more... u haf to play the game then u now how fun the game is... well tats all for tis entry.. Oo.. itz goin to be 2 a.m..

3 days of leadership camp n 1 day outin

2005-12-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

well 3 days a tat pulau ubin... nt writtin the whole trip juz a brief... after all those activies, fun sufferin we had together... DELTA(2006) WILL LEAD THE WAY.... juz so sian n lazy to rite... tis short entry can remind me untill i umm... well tats all...

2 days of hari raye wif frenz...

2005-11-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

alrite.. tis gonna be a short one... cuz i haf a time limit to use tis com... well went out hari raya wif my frenz.. kinda fun though luffin through out the whole day... the onli thing i dun like is goin to iman house.. serously his house so far... n his house is the onli one we went in tat area... hiaz.. bt still worth it... gt to eat mee soto... hehe...

well... update on wat movies i haf watch recently... umm Harry Potter.. i watched it durin preview... hehe.. n the one i watched tdy... anw... i am goin to add anibody i noe into tis blog... juz feelin like it... i noe wat i am doin... juz tat sometimez immature... hehe... anw most of things i does is immature.. bt when itz time to be serious.. i reallie mean serious.... juz dun gt me pissed off... nobody seen it before except 1 person which is durin primary skl... anw i am off!!

hehe... skyhigh...

2005-11-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

juz nw.. before i log in... went to watch skyhigh wif my frenz... the movie... i rank 3/5... nt tat gd.. cuz no the fightin part too short n too simple.... haha.. u all noe tat i like figthin type of movie... after the movie... actually i went time zone to ply... actually i dun reallie like to ply arcade... bt except a few... silent scope.. war tran... datona... top driver... gtin better at those games....

argh... iman went for mount ophir... i cant go... noo!!... my mum dun allow me.... hiaz... he will be gone for 3 - 4 days... alrite.. i made a short term goal... by nex week i should at least do 5 comprehension frm english 10yr-series..... to make my year master happie... haha... she like wantin us to do work or else gt retain... hmm.. so strict... my n my eng... crap seh... all the time....because of it... if nt i end pure sci cls... argh.... eng pass n i can be promoted... juz soooooo... nvm... oh ya juz eng oral... gosh aku kancong!!...i can see my hand shakin... he kept askin me lot of Q... alamak... most like gt low score... i better overcome tis fear or else i mite end up worse durin o-lvl... anw better go to slp.. if nt gt trouble later tmr.... haha...

skl... wanna haf extra lessons... even called a E2 camp...

2005-11-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

hiaz... sec3 haf tis E2 camp... lazy seh... holiday mood already com cuz of hari raye... then haf to return back to skl.... back to study..... learning topics for sec4... like i can remember everythin after the holiday... tmr ncc gt meetin durin lunch break... the teachers nt happy is it.. nt goin to see us for another month... i tink tis year holiday nt goin to be enjoyable at all seh... i tink i should start studyin n prepare for nex year... i dun wan cuz of my eng... i gt retain last min when i am in sec4... wat the... why they make such a rule... hmm... i dun want to stay in the skl for another year... a year of sufferin in tat new campus is gd enough already... confirm stay back morning till nite like tis year sec 4... argh seein teachers for 12 hours?? lolz... maybe some student mite even fall in luv them... haha!!...

for nex year... i am lookin forward to the overseas trip.... well... hopefully i gt to go... as it would be most likely the last few enjoyable activities.... also i gt this competition cumin up... basically the whole ting itz bout computer... robodesign n robocode... hopefully my team can win... 1st prize gt Psp for each members n gt $3000 for the whole group... worth it rite... n also i hav tis carnival thin at the same day at CC (community centre).... anybody can tag alg if they want too... well i tink i better go to slp.. tmr gt skl... nex time...

juz sometin to rite...

2005-11-05T00:29:00.000+08:00

i look at the dark sky
stars twinkling
remind me bout my past
to pursue my dreamz
nt to give up
the battle has juz started
i will achieve
wat i want

choosin my path carefully
nt wantin to go to the wrg path
itz your own choice
it u who makes the decision
nobody can decide for u
they can only advise u
because itz your own life

anw.. i dun like those girls as they like me.. so... tats the story.. oh ya.. maybe i will be postin the pictures for the malacca trip... i mean visit... at my friendster... it should e in a few weeks time... anw.. somethin i didn't rite durin the trip... my family went to 2 graveyard.... to pay respects... my grandfathers, uncle n plp who are in my family tree... i mean the real one... well... nex time!!

my celebration at melaka!!

2005-11-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

alrite... i am back... haha... itz only a 2 day or could sey a 3 day trip... juz return tis morning... hmm... morning i mean around 2a.m... hehe... tis sure gonna be a veri long entry if i describe the whole trip...

kk... left for malaysia at around 3p.m on wednesday... it was a veri long borin trip.... it took 3 hours to reach malacca... haha... well actually my whole family fall asleep... of courselah the driver must stay awake... which is my father... we nt inside bus... itz more to a family car... Matrix..

when we reach there around 6p.m... at first me, my bro and my dad went to the biggest mosque in melacca to do our prayers.... the mosque itz so beautiful... itz my 2nd time to go to tat mosque... we went to a shoppin centre to break our fast... the last fastin day... we ate kfc.. we went look around to buy a present for my little sister... itz her birthday on HARI RAYA.. haha...

after all the shoppin for her presents... we visit my grandmother (my mother's side)... both of my grandfather had passed away... anw... me, my dad, my bro, my uncle (cik lan) and my couzin age around 3-5 (Batrisyah)... she veri cutelah.. she followz wat my bro does... we went to the nearest shop.... to buy certain importain tings for my grandmother's house and (mercun) sry i dun wat to sey in english... maybe mini rockets and fireworks... haha..

went back to my grandmother house n my family went to visit my grandmother's house (my dad's side)... haha... most of my relatives lives in melacca... at her place... we played (mercun) even my dad, sis (both) and bro tag along... haha... cuz u nvr gt to play those type of (mercun) in Singapore.... oh ya.. we watch a show bout "laila" at telvisoin... haha... veri funnie n romantic the show... after tat we return back to my grandmother's house (mother's side)... argh... to make it easier.... (my mother side grandmother named: NEK MINAH) (my father side grandmother: NEK AWI)... phew...

by then itz around 1a.m in the morning.... my father and my bro want to watch soccer match at one of my uncle's house... lolz... i had to tag along... on the way... went to 7-eleven to get some snacks... well to tell u all the truth... i fall asleep even before i the soccer match starts... haha... juz so bored.... nuthin to until the soccer match at 3a.m.... phew tats only the 1st day....

the nex day... i mean on HARI RAYA... the 3 of us did our morning prayers at mini version of mosque (Surau) before ruturnin to nek minah house.... when we returned.. we changed into our hari raya attire n went to a villige mosque for Hari Raya prayers wif Cik Lan... after tat went to nek Awi kampong house... oh ya forgot to mention... both of my grandparentz house are kampong house...

when we reach nek awi house... fuyo!! almost the whole of my dad's family were there.... haha... the whole house is surrounded wif cars.... well luckily most of the couzins had already grown up... so itz much more for me... chat wif them... cuz there are hardly any stuff to do there... except for a small telivision... like sey earlier... the laila show we watch the day before...

well we return to nek Minah's house... to my surprise... most of them are already there... them means my ralatives... gt a small problem... most of my couzin on my mother side are veri young... aged 0-7.... lolz... so itz like sooooooo many little kids runnin around... n u noe wat... my mother has 13 siblings in total includin her... oh ya... the last child was given away... current age 22... name: Hidayah... haha... anw my bro is older than her... so i wonder how he goin to call her... makcik.. kinda confusin.....kkk i rite bout tis later....

kk.... we had a whole family photo... i mean a whole famile photo... wif all my cousins... itz the same for my father's side... except for i didn't mention it.... hmmm.... should i rite the whole trip... nvm... i will rite wat itz important... return ome at nite... i slept the whole returnin journey...

my head is achin... why u all ask...>>?? cuz most of my cousins haf the same name as u all... hmm.. i haf a fren name syahid so as my cuz... i haf cousin name hafiz... so as a fren... i haf a yound aunt age 22 name hidayah.. bt given away... i only gt to noe yesterday... watched a show called laila.... hav a cousin who has the same name as me!!! haha...!! juz so confusin... oh ya i found out a bit more about my cousins... well on my mum's side.... basically itz bout 3 families on my mum's side wif their children grown up to be a teenager... well i am in one of the family... i spent a lot of time wif them in the past... my family... special case... 2 guys and 2 ladies... for the other... bt one of families is all girls.... there a four girls in the family... 3 had grown up while 1 is still durin preskl... to my shock i overheard frm my parents tat 2 of them like me... n their mother ask me to shake hands wif them... well kind of wrglah... cuz they bout the same age as me...well dun want to rite namelah... remain confidential... one of themkept seyin hi to me.... ala i dun noelah whether itz tru or nt of it is juz me... well hopefully itz nt tru... anw tats all folks...

juz to rite before i go...

2005-11-02T14:04:00.000+08:00

i haf nuthin to fear
to let out my fealins
tis is reality
nt a fantsay
i dun fear
to persue my dreamz
to get to my happiness...

so sleepy....

2005-11-02T10:47:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... feel so sleepy...... dun noe why i woke around tis time.... maybe cuz i dun want to stay awake in the middle of the nite at my grandmother's kampong house.... haha... yalah.... her house is near a forest.... my uncles saw tings around the area before.... hehe... i dun to see diff tings over there.... haha....

i be leavin in the afternoon... n my dad dun noe wat wif him... wantin me to off the com... hmph... he always dun like me usin the com... he always suspect me tat i am the one who always spoil thhe com.... nt melah... i dun wat wrg wif him seh... he banned me frm usin com.... then the com gt spoil.... then he stilll blame me... wat the.... hey ... u tell me hw i spoil the com when i didn't even use the com.... hmph.... somting wif him... everyting tat go wrg in the house... he blames... like tat dun ask me for any help.... so tat u cannot blame me..... itz like four other members in the family n he always put the blame on me......

leavin to malaysia tmr

2005-11-01T20:07:00.000+08:00

alrite.... plp tmr i be leavin tmr to meet my grandparents at malaysia.... well i wont be in contact wif u plp for a while... well tats all i gonna rite tdy...

..... forgot to add somethin .....

2005-10-30T20:31:00.000+08:00

haha.... well tis year i had lots of camps... dun noe why... gt ncc camp... spec course... sec 3 camp... my own cls camp.... well there will be another camp for me... i mean for my cls.... my cls will be makin another camp.... in december.... to tink of it.... my cls is united... gt lot of outdoor activities.... t both... conducted by skl n conducted on our own... like the bbq in Sembawang... the pck musical.... agaboom!!... and lastly the outin at downtowneast.... haha... lotz of outins.... of ya tell all of u... 3e4 will be conductin a small canival at a CC... well soon the whole skl should noe bout it..... well 3e4 WINNERS...!! WiLl alWAyZ bE aS oNE... u MesS wif OnE u mess wif all of us....

..... somthin diff bout tdy .....

2005-10-30T19:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... to tink bout it.... i felt tdy like somhow diff.... is it juz me or someting wrg bout my family... kk.. itz nt somting wrg wif my family..... juz a bit odd.... in the afternoon till nw... my mum, sis, bro havent return home frm geylang... well living me alone at home untill my father com home around 5p.m.... tats mean tat i will break my fast wif my dad.... at around 6.30p.m... my mum called tellin us to go out n eat.... bt we stayed at home.... my dad sey he wants to cook burger and need my help.... well i help to prepare the buns while my cook the meat.... well the meat is home-made... usin grinded meat, eggs, onions...... hehe... i forgot the other ingredients.... oh ya... we fried some wedges too... hmm.... well the burger taste nice... haha... a job well done... well itz once in a while my dads cooks somting.... well like me lazy... cant be bothered... hehe.. mite as well my mum cooks... he onli cooks when my mum nt around....

juz nw i juz finish playin ff8..... finally i complete the game!! haha... die u evil socceress..... the game is quite nice... n at least more realistic than ff7.... ff8 itz mainly bout friendship, luv and trustin on one another... for ff7... itz a bit weird in terms of certain part of the game... well ff7 itz juz bout 2 person... an evil character and the hero... well ff8 is better... every single character plays a part..... bt the whole stories concentrates mainly on Squall, Laguna n Rinoa.... Squall the hero(main character) ... Rinoa the hero's luv(main character).... Laguna iz the hero in the past n also the father of Squall... well the game has 3 parts... the future... the present... the past... Laguna is the character u control in the past.... for rinoa and squall is in the present... for the future is well the evil socerress from who tried to cause a time depression... A whole romatic story bout Squall and Rinoa in the present and for the past.... Laguna(Squall's father) and Raine (Squall's mother bt died in the past)... well the story plot is mainly bout Squall's achievements wif his frenz, how he met rinoa and lastly his romantic journey wif rinoa... well the beginin part of the game... Squall is more to the loner type... as the game progress he changed and become more to a friendly and carin person...

WEll if u all are interested in tis game... well go gt one and play it.... itz worthwhile... especially the twist in the whole story... itz worth it to ply final fantasy games and ff8 itz one of them...

veri fun sia...

2005-10-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

juz nw.... went to the new campus for the 2nd time... tis time me and my frenz frm ncc haf to set up a drink stall for the students who are goin for the walk... i actually want to go for the walk bt i haf to set up the stall... anw the competition between the ncc and npcc are veri funnie... my frenz raise the price and lower the price like every single minute.... i can see tat they are havin lots of fun... haha i like luffin bout thir behavior.... anw tmr is the last the for mr Tan.... hmph.... kinda sad a bit... cuz he had done a lot for our skl especially balancin between outdoor activity and studies... well tats all will rite for nw....

well seyin bout your parents.. let me tell mine...

2005-10-22T19:50:00.000+08:00

oklah... i like my parents.. bt to me... they like veri strange in tryin to show their concern.. a translated version of me and my dad when i com home frm skl....

I juz come into the house

DAd: Wan u reach home already...???

ME: nolah i am still at skl..... ( cant U SEE ME TAT I AM HOME!! )

another 1... i am at home playin com a he return frm work

DAd: Wan wat are u doin...??

ME: Studyin (alemak my study itz the best.... BY plyin )

Dad: then why u playin the com games.....??

Me: (hey u ans your own question... i tot u didn't noe)

haha... my mum even better... she tinks tat white lie can still works on me

MUm: WAN!!! U BEEN PLAYIN FOR MORE THAN 6 HOURS!!! DUN NOE TO STUDY IS IT!!

ME: i tot u sey tat i can play how much i want if i do my exams good and itz after exams...

mum: ( becom quiet... realise her mistake...)

well my mum... veri funnie.... she kept on askin me the same question over and over again even like answer them a lot of time already.... wan wat subject u pass..?? i told tat i ans tat a lot of times already... then my mum like sey oh.. ok... i forgot i ask u tat question.....

my mum is like the super concern 1... u noe wat i mean rite.... like always askin how i been doin a lot of times...

bt my dad... i dun noe wat to sey... i tink he tryin to make me smile bt it didn't work... hehe still funny though...

there is few ting tat my parents always want me to do... Study... well they need sometin at the market... they will ask me to go to the market to buy tings they want... especially my mum... ask me to buy her ingrediants in th kitchen...

tat is onli a small part bout my parents.... anw all i can sey is tat a family has their own unique way of doin which is diff frm the rest..... better appreciate your mum and dad who had taken care of u since young... although their way might be odd sometimes... hehe.. like my dad...

haHA... juZ feelin veri happy!!

2005-10-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

yeah... finally... i dun need to really worry too much bout my results... the nite study at skl and at home reallie help me to improve my subjects... i dun tink tat i will pass any of the subjects if i didn't study..... Critiria to get promoted
1)Pass english and 2 other subjects...
2)Pass 5 subjects (if english fail)

my results meet the 2nd critiria... haha.... 1st time i am gettin promoted.... hehe... well my english is the one tat cause me to gt the advances in sec1-2.... for nw... i am praying hard for my good frenz and best frenz to gt promoted/advance wif me..... dun lose hope until it comes.... for me it is better to have chance rather than no chnace at all.... gt it..?? firgure it yourself... hehe... well tats all for nw....

sianlah... at skl....

2005-10-19T12:00:00.000+08:00

wah!! pathetic sia my grade... hmph.... only four subjects pass.... juz need 1 more.... i dun want to gt retain or transferred.... my parents confirm will throw me outside of the house.....

better leave this tings behind... hmmm..... the onli ting i do after exams is over..... is playin games.... ala.. better dun rite too much... later gt scoldin....

nuthin to rite bt tis....

2005-10-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

juz so bored after reaching back home after a trip to jurong.... like nrml i ply my com or my plystaion (1)/(2) or X-box..... hmm... juz tinking bout workin durin the holidays... juz to earn a few amout of money to make my life easier frm gting nags frm my parents.... kk... let me tink bout wat to rite... maybe a little deeper bout me.. well tat sound sometin gd to rite...

where should i start.... tis guy has a mind of his own... i mean i am doin somtin bt actually tinkin bout sometin else... for eg. i am talkin bout studies... bt mind is off somewhere else... like deciding wat to nex... or figuring out ways to solve somting.... one ting tat i will nvr forget.... even if haf done a lot of gd tings... if did something bad once... even a minor 1... plp will only look at u at the mistake u made and look u at the bad side bout u.... most of the mistakes a made by me are my carelessness..... doesn't like to take advice in terms bout board games like risk.... i haf a strategy of my own.. BETTER DUN SPOIL IT..!!! i also dun like to share my personal problems/matters or my family problems/matters... tats why u always see me like a happy guy all the time... anw i dun care bout my looks.... i am the messy type.... eg. my mum clean my whole room... i came i like whoah!! so neat and tidy... common lets make it a bit messy.... haha... my mum always had a hard time cleanun my room... juz to thank her for me to at least spend my time to make it messt again... hehe... well i tats all for nw... wanna noe more bout me.... well go become a detective and SPY ON ME!! if catch u.... u gtin yourself into a big trouble......

....:::: mY PerSOnalITy ::::....

2005-10-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

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ty guo quan.... i juz gt nuthin to update....

...::: another boring day :::...

2005-10-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

hiaz... i did nuthin bt usin the com for the whole day..... lazy to study for poa... most likely i will study it on monday... actually i woke up at 2 p.m tdy... power sia..... i slp like there's no tmr... hehe..... well me and syl actually came in hazard stituations... wat mean tat getting injurd... we jump down from the 2 floor a new block to 1st floor... haha we crazy sia... nuthin better to do... cuz we so lazy tat we climb down to the peageon hole since the gates at the staircase was lock... nuthin personal... a guy in sec 4 called monkey faced life and death situation... i can tell he is a crazy fellow and dun fear death... he actually climb frm 1st floor of new block to the 4 th floor... i tink 1 gentle breeze i made him fall to his death..... it will be 1 splat of human cummin down frm the sky.....

well if non-malays are wondering why the malay boys have to go off after around 7... is tat we haf to prayers at night as mosque... tats all for tdy.... gonna play final fantsyVIII....

changes...

2005-10-06T16:15:00.000+08:00

my maths paper juz nw... hiaz.. juz couldn't sey anyting bout it... as long i did my best... tmr gt chem and why i am doin here blogging.. kinda miss it a lot... haha... nvr blog like almost a month... i made an effort to change the skin... well tis gonna last long the others...

seriusly.. i realise myself changing slowly in terms of behavior.... well.. my frenz.. too... some ventured into the darkside... dun wanna to mention names... iman seems to be more confident in doin his work and studyin as hard as he could... he changed a lot... changes frm when i have noe him... certain tat arent meant to be told.. wat made him to change...

i want to achive my goals.... my dreamz... tats wat i am studying for... for me... it takes more than wat u want... u have to choose wat u want.... change for the better...?? remain wat u are or for the worse...?? well gt to study see ya.......

sry for nt blogging for a long time.....

shedding tears for the mistakes i made.....

Kratatoa island..

2005-08-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

Do u know tat it exploded in year 1888.... in the past it has 3 volcanoes.... suddenly they errupted and half of the island was exploded.... Causing tsunami ( i tink it will be mountain high tsunami )..... causing a drop in tempereture ( ice age??? )..... when it exploded... people around 4000+ km to 5000+ km can hear the explosion and tremble can be felt.... debris are found all over indonesia and SINGAPORE ( i tink the whole singpore will full black ashes pollution... ) there is another volcanoe growing exactly at the same play when half of the island exploded... it is called anak Kratatoa.... i will wonder what if the mountain tsunami hit singapore... well to get accurate ans... go yahoo and found out more bout it....

NDP..

2005-08-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

kk.. a short entry bout ndp... the school ndp was veri fun and it was a success.. we had lots of fun takin photos....

yesterday.. almost half of my cls went to yishun central to watch the fireworks.. at first i went to watch all the weapons and stuff.. kinda nice though especially the sniper riffle juz like the one in the game i always played... hehe.. finally i gt to see and touch a real 1.. the firework was around 8+.. it was nice.. of course fireworks are nice... hehe.. well tats all can rite for nw... hey syl... haPpY!!!..??

a LeaDeR iS tHe PerSoN whO GoES FirST... tat PerSon cannot run away... if he have to destroy the place wif his people.... he haf die along wif them...
ThE FirSt PerSON tO rISk His LIfe... and the last PersOn to DIE...

Changing skin..??

2005-07-31T22:46:00.000+08:00

well.. u guyz may see tat i always use anime.. well cuz i could nt find a gd 1.. soon i goona change the skin..

aRgH i aM SicK....

2005-07-23T13:02:00.000+08:00

hiaz.. why i always fall sick when itz time for ncc training... nvm.. oh ya if tis punish my platoonmates... i really sry... may be i gt sick cuz i been veri busy tis week and itz gonna be even more busy for nex week... i dun reallie like to fall sick.... cuz i haf to spent hours on my bed doin nothin... anw nex time.. i gt nothin else rite....

sOmE qUesTiOns For ME.....

2005-07-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

1. What is your fav nick...?
Ans: Unknown

2. Is there somebody u hate the most...?
Ans: Ya. But better nt reveal it...

3. What is your hobby..?
Ans: Playing Computer games....

4. What u been doing for the past hour...?
Ans: Return frm my religious cls... watch 2 movies.. Cat in the hat and johny english.. Blog hopping

5. What is your fav ting to do when u are really bored..??
Ans: disturb plp... via. sms or msn

6. How many games u playin rite nw and name them...?
Ans: dun noe how much lah bt i can name them... Diablo2:LOD, Command and Conquer... Americas army, Final fantsy games, Sonic, Gunbound, Muonline, bonus and minclip games....

7. What Games u play in the past....?
Ans: hmm... i play so many games untill i cant remember them...

8. Who is the girl in your mind rite nw...??
Ans: Confidential... haha

9. Why..??
Ans: cuz i dun want to tell u... ahaha

10. Do u haf a job other than as student...??
Ans: Ya.. i gt this transfer job i share wif my bro..

11. How much u usually gt for the job...??
Ans: depends.. $100-$200...

12. Who u trust the most in your family..?
Ans: My Bro...

13. last Q... What it your dream job...??
Ans: A game maker...

bored...

2005-07-19T16:52:00.000+08:00

since u ladies and gentlements want me to update so much... nw i update.. kk.. happee....????

Swoosshh... tat its the ting i heard most of the time in the morning.... my mum caned me when i was asleep... hiaz.. so sianlah... early in the morning kena cane... she gt nothin else to do is it early in the morning... crap man...

anw in skl juz nw.. canlah.. much more better than last week... firstly my cls went to com lab 3 for the campus ting... after it was geography... i gt 13 out of 20 without studying.... haha... felt sry for laila cause she fail he geo quite badly... same for iman... laila than kept on askin me... how i pass 1 without studying... the only ting i can sey to her was tat to listen during lesson and must understand it... then i found tat i nvr kena self study... haha.. so lazy sia to go self study... i haf to self study since i was sec 2.... ish veri boring... sitting for hours... lookin at books.....

haha.. tats all.. lazy to type more.. haha...

all u haf to do is belive....

2005-07-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

i changed the song to ' belive ' from gundam seed.... there are better songs from other gundam series bt tat will com later...

juz nw in the afternoon at skl.. i finish up my maths assignments... it too me hours to complete it... so much to do sia... anw... when i was doin my hw.... band was practicing for skl ndp... same goes to the flag bearers... i cant juz stop imagine the day it happens... cuz i will be 1 of them.. the Guard Of Honour... along wif my platoon mates.. we all haf be waitin and lookin forward to tis day... itz once in a life time u could be 1... we haf been workin hard for tis and be wishing for the day to com since we are lower secondary.... it all matters bout the effort and hardwork we had put in.. it will pay off well to be 1...

All we haf to do is to belive in yourself
Wif tat u can achieve almost anything
Show plp tat its nt who they ting u are
Even dreamz can be achive by this

the never ending battle...

2005-07-05T20:06:00.000+08:00

sry bout last time... juz forget bout it kk.. the skin is about an animated series... u guyz should noe bout it so i dun really need to explain it... juz the main point of the story... FRenshIP, luV, fReedom and pEacE....

i gt a lot of hw to do k.. i hope u guys understand... i juz rite a brief bout wat happen tdy... i haf been doin dnt the whole day... i am trying to make it look veri nice.... well tats all for tdy...

P.S: dun go and watch War Of The Worlds... itz nt worth it...

tis site is no longer in use

2005-07-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

i haf no mood wat i haf done today.... its the most stupiest mistake ever... i will regret it... i haf no mood to do anyting.... nobody will trust me sooner or later.... i told u bout my msn nick... iam reallie serious... the ting i hate the most is too lose frenz... nobody is guiding me... i will lose all my frenz sonner or later..... i tell u someting.. i am goin to abandon tis site... i no longer haf the mood to blog anymore.. the competion tmr... even if my team wins... i no longer give a dam.. the ting i tresure the most is my frienship.. i lost the trust.. the most impt ting.... i gonna abandom tis web for real!! so dun com to tis web anymore.....

I dun care bout anything anymore.....
nobody will even cares...
i hate my life...
i havent even made my birthday wish....
maybe i wish that i nvr even exist...
so tat everybody haf a better life rather than me givin problem to u guyz...

Happy Birthday to me!!!

2005-07-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!!
Happy Birthday to me!!
Happy Birthday to izwan!!
Happy Birthday to me!!

hehe... now i am 15 years old..... ni kes tak keje to wish myself....

why... it has to fall on tat day...

2005-06-26T18:44:00.000+08:00

i am so not lookin forward to tis friday... itz ncc day... why it has to fall on tat veri day.... i tell u somting.. u will see me being chase by the whole company trying to beat me up... wah sianlah.. confirm kena beat up 1... no running away... unless i fall sick on tat day... hehe.... ala why did it haf to fall on tat day.. last year too... it fall on tat veri same day...kk bye for now.. need to hw...

job oppurtinity....

2005-06-23T22:26:00.000+08:00

i dun noe lah... i been tinking bout tis.... i haf tis very easy job opportunity.... i will gt bout $700 a month if i take it.... well decion makin is veri for me.... well my ans will be sooner or later....

(if i take the job... i can haf a comp of my own... lolz... no more restriction....)

Sianlah....

2005-06-21T20:15:00.000+08:00

for the past 2 weeks my life is like **** at home.... my mum nag and nag non-stop.... then my little sister dun wats wrong wif always disturb me 1.... Many bad things happen to me during the 2 weeks... my life reallie like sian u noe... my parents like haf total contral over everything 1... even after they gave me my allowance they will ask wat i will do wif it... and even somtimes cut it short... they go anywhere they like and most of the time i was left out alone at home... wat the **** man..... they like dun realli care wat we realli feeling... the onli person tat in the family tat had always been nice to me is my bro.. he is the onli person in my family tat doesnt givin me problem.... my parents dun even trust me tat i am goin to skl to study....they sey tat i will hang wif somebody or go play arcade..... where gt sia... i tell them the truth tat if i was goin to tat... Probably even my frenz trust me more than them...wat if later skl open and they dun trust me tat i will go to skl.... well MIGHT as WEll i DUN GO TO SKL!!!!... tis is **** like hell....

HoW THe HeLL I gOiN TO DeAL WIf Tis **** PrOB......
i WiSH TaT i Go tO a CaMp TaT I wiLL nT EveN SeE thEM FoR MonTHs oR EveN YeARs...
tIs iS HoW **** mY LIFE IS.....

3E4 camp...

2005-06-21T13:51:00.000+08:00

juz gt back from my cls camp... well probably u guyz nvr heard of cls camp rite..... well my cls has a pace programme from the student help group ( well nt sure wat tat the place called )

the was damn fun.... nt strict at all... onli bout 20+ pupils came... we were divided into 2 groups.. and had a lot of activities like water bomb.. and certain activities tat i dun noe wat to sey... it was overnite.. we slept around 4+... wanna noe why....?? we like so bored and play card games inside the classrooms... the food they gave were nice too... like curry chicken... potato chips... chocolates... and maggi noodles.... the theme for the camp is discover wat qualities u haf..... wanna noe my clsmates tink of me...?? na better nt tell u guyz... if u want go ask my clsmates

to tink of it... my cls haf lots of advantage due to the programme... we gt free tickets to watch certain performance which are veri expansive... like Agaboom and PCK the musical....

my cls is united...
Care for 1 another....
Goin true our journey together...
till the end.....!!

..:: yeah Promotion ::..

2005-06-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

yeah... finally end of camps...... my spec course juz ended... and tink wat happen... i gt promoted to 2nd sergant... all tnx to my clts.... CLT Fammy and CLT Kim Poh.... ish... i am veri happee bout it.... well all the test was not tat diff as i did my best in it... oh ya... i also wan to tnx to my platoonmates who helped me to go through it...

finally i could enjoy my holidays... tmr i am going to haf a cls outing again... same for monday... well itz more to make our cls bonded together.... kk i wan to play computer games after all my hard work... kk byez...

hiaz.... i felt veri sad bout somthing.....

2005-05-30T20:23:00.000+08:00

kk... i am veri sry cuz a nvr update for a long time and renew the skin which so call collecting 'dust'... hehe... well the skin is frm final fantasy 9... well those who play final fantasy will noe tat they are action packed, adventure and luv story behind them.....

tdy i felt veri sad cuz i nvr did i suppose to do tis morning... i am veri sry... kk... for tdy i came to skl in the morning to help out wif the ncc flag... then we played soccer untill evening.... i had my dinner wif my frenz before going home.... still i juz cant stop tinkin bout the ting i did wrg and wished tat i had did the rite way.... well past is past.. i better make up somting for it.....

...:::ReaDY sET gO:::...

2005-04-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

Wohoo!! i really like my timing for 2.4k.m run... haha... i made my goal... achieve it... keep on going all the way!!! my timing was 10:45 mins... An A for me... finally haf the chance to get gold for naffa...

anyway sry for nt updating for so long... i am now sneaking away using the com.. the background u are seeing now i my past time fav game and itz still my favourate.... if onli i got the Metal gear solid 2 and 3... hiaz.... i've been happy and hyper active lately... well exept for poa and phy lesson... i been passing my test and the way to my goal.. i wished i could maintain it all the way... i haf a prob wif my eng as i know i would fail but i am studying trying my best to achive my best results.... i realli hope i would made it through this year... i veri motivated rite now... Go Till The enD...

The personalty of the picture dude here is a loner.. doesnt like anybody and only haf 2 frens.. well i am becoming more like him... solo dude... people would juz walk away from me after not seeing each for a long time... i onli trust 2 person and nt gonna tell u who are they... i dun like the person u tink i liked... we onli good frens.. i already sick of it losing frens after 1 another... wat the say life haf to go on... like tis dude in the background.. he has no past... no present... no future...

...::: DaSh DaSH DasH :::...

2005-02-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

tdy my class had 2.4km run during P.e lesson... well our P.e teacher inform us that we gonna try to use a new route which is near yishun pond and GV.... of course as usuall the mly boyz group together.... most of us actually planned nt to take it serious except Syafiq, Iman bin Salim, hafiz 3/6 ( i tink) and me.... well syafiq became the leader of the group and lead us the way at a constant speed... he had a watch so he knows how much time before we fail the test..... at first, we jog at a fast pace which caught up wif a lot of plp and was one of the fews at the front.... when i was jogging , i could feel the freshness and the breeze of the air which makes the joging far more easier.... i jogged behind syafeq all way the until the finishing line... iman and hafiz tend to walk after jogging 1 1/2 rounds before they start jogging again..... almost reaching the finishing line... my brain kept on telling me to stop rest but i like scold **** to myself and all of sudden i goes away... lolz.... i manage to complete it in 11mins 35 sec.... wow, freaking achivement for me... i improved by 3 mins before the last 1.. hehehe.... of couse syafeq win me cauze he was the leader... i was like having asthma attack after the run... i could not breathe properly and my lungs and stomach were in pain.... it took bout 5 mins to when i return to normal... i really hoped to achieve a better timing nex time... for the new route , i suggest those who runs needs to be stong in mental.... u haf to keep telling yourself that if that u could pass tis run and its worth it.... u dun want to run all the way for 2.4 km and fails... i know it will feel suks... so i tink thats the interesting tink tdy....

P.S: my class had to stay back after the morning assembly tdy and i dun wan to talk bout it...

Firdaus's Birthday!!

2005-02-10T22:36:00.001+08:00

tdy was like hell fun ...... i, Nur Iman, Iman, Zafrie, Syafiq, hidayat and Zuhairi went to a BBQ at Sembawang Park.... it was to celebrate Firdaus Birthday........ we went there by buz of course.... then we help firdaus parents to unpack the stuffs from the van.... oh ya forgot to tell u guyz .... it started at bout 3+p.m..... at first we ate some fried chicken, nuggets, fishball and hotdog.... we only had BBQ at nite.... firdaus little bro forgot to the soccer ball which he suppose to bring... we all kinda feeling a little down and bored cause we had to wait a few hours for the BBQ.... then we saw a group of boyz playing soccer.... then we asked whether we can joined them... they gladly invite us cause they had too little plp to play... at first we thought that they were chinese.... during the soccer match they start to speak a Korea language we found out that they are from korea... we are like representing singapore to fight korea in soccer.... then we all started to become the comentator in Winning Eleven... ( a soccer game and the comentator speak like a korean).... we change each other name like ZAFRIO,IMANO.... almoz everything haz 'o' behind.... as usual i play defender and nur iman the keeper.... they kept on calling me red bull cause i sprint through out the match without losing my stamina... iman was like feelling gabra as a golie and kept on scolding me cauz i the only defender around and usually able to defend well .... well actually we could make a gd ytss team if the required plp are around.... nur iman and hafizh told me tis before.... GK: Nur Iman... Defender: Me, Daniel, Jeremy, and maybe Wei Xiang... Midfielder: Mohd Hafiz, Abdul Hafiz, Zafrie, Zuhairi.... Striker: Hafizh , Syafiq.... Substitute: those who wans to play soccer...... Actually we dun really play like the things written above... we like time to offence most of us would be at front.... when time for def we all go down to guard the goal post.....anyway i dun care bout all tis... it is'nt like we gonna make it real... back to game shall we.... we lost to them... anyway it juz a game isn't it.... most of the star player werent around like Hafizh..... anyway those korean should be the same age as us or a little older cauze they were skooling in singapore and in sec 2.. as u guyz know that student foreigners are usually older.....

we then 'doa selamat' untuk firdauz.... Yong Qiang visit for a while a leaves as it was chinese new year and he needs to go....then we had another match against Firdauz other frenz..... we lost again... it really a bad day for us that afternoon... his couz and other frens were mainlly older from us a from AISS...

in the evening, at bout 7+p.m.... the BBQ started.... the BBq chicken was very nice... the chicken satey was nice too. .ytss group make a camp fire which last bout 30-45 mins... is was hell fun.... we made a camp fire in the park....some of us use our handphone cameres to take photo of the fire which was very nice wif the achievements.... lolz.... we put it out cauze we were warn by firdauz father bout the camp fire since the police did pratroling around the park at nite...at bout 8:30p.m we kinda chase Firdauz and carry him to the beach and throw him into the sea.... after doing that we ran away from him cause we felt that he might take revenge on us... he didn't and did not mind cauze it was his birthday... he was like soking wet and he did not and extra shirt... we kinda tell him to hang somewhere to let it dry... we had a little boyz talk away from firdauz relatives... oh ya forgot bout my old fren maya which was a couz of firdauz.. it was a girl which nur iman used to like... we disturb him of course as usual.... at bout 9+p.m we had notin to do... Iman, Firdauz and Zafrie had a challenge on who can swing the highest...... it was either iman or firdauz cauze the height they reach was bout the same.... then at bout 9.20p.m we went home cauze we felt very tired and tmr had skool bout the concert thing...well thats the fun and tiring day i had.... cya

...:::: Kill ME ::::..

2005-02-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

last few days i was like so buzy till i always reach home at bout 7+..... then i like haf to do hw right after eating dinner.... my parents doen't want to increase my daily allowance...... i like onli get $2 per day..... i didn't eat well almost every at school.... the onli food i can buy for both recess and lunch is a miserable bread and a 50cent drink respectively..... tis really suks.......

tdy kinda haf a long tiring and boring day at skool... i stayed back to help iman wif his D&T... my other frens kept on asking whether that is my job... i juz ans them that it was iman... if i didn't help him, i already went to the school field to play soccer wif Hafizh and the rest of the boyz... then during P.e lesson which was the most boring ever... the activity was to play an activity called orienteering.... its far diff from the 1 i learnt from ncc... it was far too diff.... the symbol cards was like very well hidden from sight... kinda boring cause my half of my group gone after 2 check point leaving me, Guo Quan and Slyvester..... juz veri boring afternoon

before the D&T and the P.e thing... the morning lesson even more boring especially POA and M.t... my mother teacher, cikgu Haji kept on talking and talking which somtimes doesn't even related to studies.... he kept saying that he will nt speak a lot tis yearand he was like the other way round.... i could still remember he saying that girls are better than guys in certain things like m.t and mainly languages.... well the thing he say kinda backfired towards himself... haha.. he say that boyz are lazy which is true... same for him... ahahhaha.... tink before u say man... the boyz kinda make fun of his words since the teacher also a lazy guy....for POA... the teacher kept on repeating and repeating whcih makes me felt boring and falling asleeply easyly.. the worksheets she gave us was like completed immediately after she gave out.... then she was like going throught it slowly like we did not understand.... man tdy is really the most boring day evr!!

DeciSiOn MaKInG.....

2005-01-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

Tdy was like usual like any other school dayz.... in the afternoon.. my class had p.e which we had to run 2.4km.... at least improve my timing by 1min than the last time ran... hehe.... anyway my timing still need a lot improvement pass.... after that i kinda stay back a while having fun in the classtoom wif iman and laila....

Tmr sec 3 ncc gonna haf life firing.... lazy to prepare the uniform and other stuff sia.... i was actually a little pissed off to haf norm training for ncc yesterday... man juz too busy... had a lot of stuff to do like hw and other admin stuff... i hardly had time to play com...

i been thinking bout tis.... she doen't haf any feelings for me and she wanted to be juz frens... i dun mind bout it... i won't be angry bout it.... i juz haf to accept it.. i respect her decison... u guyz see me like nvr serious bout things... well when time to be serious, i will be serious.... when time to joke around i will joke around... anyway i really need to concentrate wif my studies and try my best to my hw the proper way nt by copying my frens... tis way i tink i could improve further in my studies.. before i go... i hope those who read tis entry will stop those rumours....

BacK iN 2005....

2005-01-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

yup i am back....

i no longer care bout who wants to visit tis web or not....

lets get on wif the things that happen recently.... i am now in 3e4 since want Geo not history which i can fail badly... last friday, me and my pds team made a performance for the Sec 1 CCA Bazzaar.... we kinda make some mistake at the ending part of the formation... anyway our next performance will be on Speach Day

tis year really gonna need to study before o-levels..... Soooooooo many hmwk..... the teacher doesn't tink we going to be mad like this...... anyway before my father catch me

tis Web No LonGeR In UsE

2004-12-06T01:44:00.000+08:00

GonnER.......
NeX time WhEn I cAn Use ThE COm FreElY.....
CoNcEnTraTing In My sTUDies ( 2005-2006)......
DoEsn't MeAn I aM NOt PlaYinG Com GamES.....
i teLl U GuYs iF I StArTeD a NeW WeB......
aNywAy I FelT LiKe Tis WeB Is UsElesS As NoBody SeEms TO bE viSitinG It.......

P.S: I aM SuPportiNg TauFik Not Daphine.... iT Was The SkiN FormAt And i DidN't ChanGE It

.... DaMn BoReD .....

2004-11-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

-= SiGh =- juz so bored..... i got banned from using the com in my room.... now is to study for tmr Muis exam..... if u see me go out wif iman 2e8.... we are going out to use a com nearby in that area in a shop ..
P.S: Sry for not updating for so long and damn my website like nobody visits ...... Oh ya it u guys wondering how com i am using com.... sneaking away to use the com when father leaves the com on.........

Dioblo2:Lord Of Destruction RuleZ

2004-10-31T20:32:00.000+08:00

Diablo2:Lord of Destruction Status

1st acc: izwan (necromencer) lvl 36 Diff: Nightmare

2nd acc: flammingarrow (amazon) lvl 20 Diff: Normal

I did nothing much other than playing my com..... I didn't rite bout my class next year..... Well my form teacher chose me to go 3e5...... My family had a discusion which class i go and the decision they made was i going to to 3e4....... Of coarse the chance is dam big to go that class unless all those who suppose to 3e4 want to go to that class....... My family want me to go to that 3e4 instead of 3e5 cause that is difference between history (3e5) and geography(3e4)...... it is better since my GEO is better than history which i kept failing...... So why i didn't choose 3e6 cause it is a GEO class too..... My family dun want to risk me staying in 3e5 since the chance of going 3e6 is very slim..... Now is the teachers decision which class i am going..... hopefully no history which really gonna effect my O-levels

For tmr, i gonna haf a beach cleaning at Sembawang beach by NCC........ Sianlah they..... Nvr give transport to go there and the attire was quite scrary..... cause we actually aren't allowed to where half No.4 outside skool...... so now my whole platoon i feeling confused and some of us decided not to go for our safety cause of the attire...... now the only thing i haf to do is to wait untill there is a change in attire..... then probably i will go for the cleaning thing........

Tdy really boring man!! I played for an hour and my 2nd acc (D2:LOD) only go up by 4 lvl...... i got really annoyed of the room i joined in...... they are not partied together and some more worst the quest are completed so the game they are playing are only for Exp not quest....... the more players in a room the more stronger the monsters going to be......

i really got annoyed wif my little sis (age 5) today.... i dun noe what wif her..... kept on crying anything i did to her..... she cried for getting killed by the com in X-box (Crimsom Skies)..... i already told her to start from the beginning but she didn't want cause she lazy to learn from the beginning.... she played saved file in the game.... the difficulty was hard... to make it more diff i was like almost finish the game..... it is hard for her but easy towards me........ then she kept asking me wat i am going to buy for her birthday.... she couldn't wait untill the actuall day (3 Nov)...... lucky i haf patient instead of scolding since i was fasting....... nvm bout it..... i gtg cya next time.... wow my longest entry and it was such a boring day without me realising it........

Missed My Class

2004-10-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating for a very long time...... As u can see i made an effort of changing alomost everything..........

I really going to miss my class.... It was the best year i ever had because of them..... Lets write about yesterday..... it was actually a exciting and sad day for me as it was going to be my last day wif 2e7..... Some got their results but for me i already got it on thursday..... lucky me not to go for the special programme but still haf leadership course + project on Sec Orientation....... Anyway when we get the 2004 Yearbook, almost everyone start to ask each other for Signiture under the memory section.... Of coarse i did too but i didn't get everyone in the class...... that book gonna be a memory book for 2004 especial about my class and how my behaviour change.... Oh ya also my trip to Langkawi during the June Holiday and my first flight on an aeroplane lolz.........

Today, i went for ncc even during fasting period..... it was very tough and tiring since i could not drink water and the weather seems to be very hot that time...... 2/5 of the malays in my platoon break their fasting because of these...... I, Nur Iman, Syafiq endured through the training....... When i reach homeat 2p.m , i took a bath and went straight to bed after doing my prayers..... i woke up at about 6p.m.... wahaha i even skip my religious which had change day from tmr to today and i didn't come..... it suppose to be a preparation for my Muis exam...... man i didn't play much today due to updating this web and its ok wif since i got very bored wif the games i usually play...... gtg my father want to use the com

maN WhY ThEre SuCh ThiNgs As Art ExaMs

2004-10-18T01:47:00.000+08:00

Current Game Playing: DiabloII: Lord Of Destruction
Character: Necromencer ( LvL 30 ) ( Summoner )

Past few days was a celebration of end of exams... i played for more than 6 hours of computer games..... After Playing it i felt so dizzy and went straight to bed.... Anyway i felt art is like an extra subject..... Need to do the preparetory work... Lazy sia to do.... I do it any how but at it is understandable to grab some marks.... One thing for sure i will not paint my work instead i use colour pencils.... it is easier u know cause my painting skills is worser than a primary school student paint....... I watch Pearl Habour juz now.... Wah so sad, the interesting part coming up than they rite down there 'To Be Continued' ..... Actually i watch more than 3 times already at HBO....... Good luck in Your ART Tmr

We HaF To LeAvE ThE PaST BehiNd :'(

2004-10-14T14:19:00.000+08:00

As u guys can see that i haf made some chnages to the web like adding music and changing the words under the loading section ( bottom left of your internet Programme ) forgive me is there are some mistakes

Now for the reaL entry............... i felt a little upset today as school gonna end soon although i dun like studying............. I GonNa MIsS 2E7 :'( ........ Thats why the song for my web is graduation...... Wah my class is the best i been in....... we been through problems and scolding together..... We had SufferEd together.... I think the bond in our class is very strong and we all behave almost the same like hating which teacher and liking which teacher ( MRS LEE Wah i cannot believe that i gonna miss her) and my former maths teacher Miss Tan L.L...... Shes the best teacher i ever had....... MAn I ReaLLy GonNA miss the class... hiaz....... I wish most of u guys from 2E7 will be in the same class wif me ( well if i dun go to NA :'( because of my English) I juz wish that i go back to the past but life haf to on................